miniature

looks like a mini toy chinatown!!

kene tgk besar sket, kecik2 tak nampak..

nampak cam miniature..sket2..

ke tak?

tilt shift photography..interesting

its a dog eat dong world..and only the cunning survives

maafkan aku kalian, aku sudah biarkan arena di sini ketinggalan buat terlalu lama..
aku bilang aku agak selfish, mahu sahaja menjenguk blog rakan2 yang lain, mengharapkan update, tapi diri sendiri keberatan untuk mencoret..

apekah aku bz?

entah, aku rasa macam biasa sahaja hidup..mungkin ini dipanggil writers block..tapi aku bukan penulis, jadi aku rasa sesuai sahaja aku guna term, malas

pedulikan, mari menulis rakan2 jari..mari2..

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politics, hate it or love it..

i came to terms, as i started off my internship program, that the company i shall be serving had "FUTURE" written all over it..after a month i was there, i felt at home, felt being useful and felt that i was doing something with my life.

I had visioned a future there..

that was then, now..

its apparent that there are internal politics that I am not able to overlook, however hard i tried..politics that causes some people to shoot up, and some good honest working people be pushed down the food chain. Politics that go beyond talking behind people's backs. Its this politics that has got me into a sudden change of heart, and makes one to reevaluate the options.

Politics..office politics are the worst of its kind..

I realize, that not everything in this world is achievable thru hard work. Sometimes u have to be able to lick some a*ses to get where u want to..good PR can get u places it seems, eventhough u slack work ethics, and have no output whatsoever..

its the illusion that ure doing work, that is what matters probably..and its a crying shame..

its also amazing how cunning some people are, even if they dont look it..
its a black book, with a floral cover..

id just like to get this done and over with, back to the sanctuary among my peers, and with people who dont have an agenda they'd kill over for..

where hard work actually gets u places, and being a good ass licker gets u no where..

one last year at least.

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its not going anywhere if its still here after all these years..

but i dont want to look for another destination just yet, not just yet.
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i need pictures in my blog, now wudnt that make it more interesting? ;p

ok...reevalution required...me thinks..

Ok, im seriously reevaluating my life's choices..seriously..

hectic week..spent a few days at an oil rig construction site doing system test..and heck..i dont understand how they ken stand the heat..i mustve been sweating a good half liter that day..
being in a construction zone means youd be wearing long sleeves throughout the day..in the blistering heat!!!

to make things a little bit more hard is the fact that the eng in charge is away..so the solution?
send in two trainees to do the testing (wtfish!!) with a temp engineer to not make it not so obvious two interns are running the operations..
















see that yellow platform in the distance..imagine walking to and fro every time u need to take a pee..(-_-")















upcoming platform still under construction, wont be able to tend to it since its scheduled after i finish my internship..*grins*















the selat in the distance..hauling almost 20kg worth of gear all the way up here can test any mans mettle..


its a wake up call on what being in the field really means in this profession..suddenly, the prospect of going back to studying doesnt seem so bad for now..:p

the plus side to this is the on site exp.hopefully comes in handy when i go job hunting soon..*crosses fingers*

hope they pay me extra for this..*grins*



i shud be writing this in my weekly report, instead here i am writing this here...(-_-")..
not productive..sooo not productive..

Monologue; its a reflection thing

after having some time being into this..how do we feel at the moment?
a future?
or an impending ending?

is this the position that we would like to see ourselves in? forever?
worth living, waking up to the same beat?
serves the purpose of our being?
worth the effort or not yielding hopeful results?
if not, keep at it or find another interest?

work, life and everything else, they share the same monologue..
yeah, asking..

to inquire oneself...

is a hobby of a hungry man too lazy to go out and eat..
and with weight of professional responsibilities massed on his inexperienced shoulders

Good luck with that..good luck

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I have neither the courage to step forward, not the cowardice to back away, only desire to move forward.And that makes me a dreaming fool..

3 letter questions

monday is never a good day...
ANY day after a good holiday is never a good day..

~_~..mind at work at half awake..,and boss being away doesnt help neither..

i need my coffee...

anywys..

i have been thinking, and thinking (yes, i find thinking a thought provoking hobby ;p)
thinking about things..a lot of things...
thoughts are provoked by questions, and some questions are best left unaswered, leaves the whole thinking game a bit more mysterious..

for instance..take for example tadi, i was driving home, it was around 8 pm, pretty dark..no street lights..
then up ahead i cud see VAGUELY a couple of guys walking in the MIDDLE of right lane, wearing BLACK and one dude had SUNGLASSES on..
question?

obviously,

WTF?

ok, so its not a question, but shudve heard me say it..it SOUNDS like a question

another instance was on Saturday, woke up, read the paper, and saw what we won over our neighbours down south..

WTH!??

yeah, its another question..

i find myself having deep thoughts after such 3 letter questions..if has been following a lot of my monologued questions..
note: W can mean what or why..and for those who are under age, F is for Fish..not the other thing

WTH is my prime lens?
conclusion: POS Mala*sia steals from its good citizens

WTH do we want with a bunch of rocks in the middle of the sea?
conclusion: We have hight tech lab submersive making thing that we plan to use there

WTF is the tenet cut off at the opis?
conclusion: We are to become zombies at work, nothing more

a lot of WTH's and WTF's has been asked..and sometime the occasional HTH or HTF..

mind u though, the conclusions are after a very deep deep tot, and summed up as logical as my sometimes anger/delusional/unpicked brain can process..

i know random..but thats about all i can process these days..

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as unwholesome as this entry is, i had a great weekend all the same.
mind of work=good=happy guy=happy eating=gain weight.. nice..

kaman2, cheer up!!!

the days are slow it seems..

i come to work,turn the lights on in the office (being the first one there), sit down and power up my workstation..
i kill time with a quick nap or some music (tenet been cut off, even in the mornings, for reasons i dont know myself)..

at 9 ill start doing some real work since thats the time most of the staff comes in anyways..nowadays things have started to pace down a bit, work meaning ill be in front of the computer all day, doing documents and papers that's needed to be delivered to client..

its booooooooooooooooooooooooooring, lemme tell you..ngaa

and no outlet to kill the boredom with..ngaaaa

i know ive been nagging for a good holiday, but taking leave from work seems to be impossible..with the alotted leave given to me being none, its a miracle how Mr T gets so many cuti..rili, its a miracle!!!
last i check, the amount of cuti left for me was -2 (read: negative)..yeah, thats how unfit i am to have a leave off work..

so, what do i have left to look forward?
weekends are all i have..sad, i know..so i plan to utilize them fully over the next few weeks..outings, jalan2..
ill go out alone if i have to..
yeah, thats how desperate i am to get my mind off work..

on another note, its nearing the summer holidays for our counterparts in the west, so with that said, we can expect a slew of movies hitting our shores within the next week or so..

im usually an action movie watching kinda guy, but this trailer just caught me as one of those movies u wouldnt want to miss out..







haha, i know, kids stuff, but i need a good laugh..i dont do serious, id like to be luvable..hahahahah

Eton is currently underutilized, which i hate...i shud be OUT THERE..not crammed into some office space all day!!
young, with barely enuf money to survive, and the passion be out there!!
how come those people on Travel & Living make it so easy?

doesnt make it any better when people around you start saying how much fun it is to go there and here, this pulau and that pulau..ngaaa..all i feel is envy, and its a deadly sin..

part time sinner, arent we all..

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There are things that seems are just out of reach, and I cant help but sense that I have failed.

I promise a proper update for everything soon

things have really slowed down a bit here..

its not that i dont want to write..i do...i really do..

sometimes it seems i want to update a lot of things at once..

this blog..
flickr..
frenster..(kadang2..)
intern report..

and my life with its crucial relationships..

i like to be well informed, and well updated..however I have found myself sometimes just running away from it all when its just too much..
and yield nothing..

doesnt help that internet is now restricted at the workplace..(-_-")..not saying that i spend my quality working hours on the net doing blogs..its just that, i dont have the channel anymore to quickly jot down any spurious thoughts or inputs..
keep them for later?..not the same vibe...

owh well, mebe were not meant to occupy our mind other than the spreadsheets and documents at the desk..

that aside....

life goes on.


my photoshop is now open almost always when the comp is on.kunun2 i can just edit2 should i not be able to sleep at nite..sorta like a midnight activity i can indulge in to forcibly make me feel sleepy..

this is one i made yesterday night..



















a whole plethora of brushes..mind half awake..so be gentle on the comments..

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Be the reason for my smiles? :)