Interested

Interest, it is an interest thing...

how long can your interest stay interesting...for how long does the fire stay once its started..does it need to be rekindled after a while, or does it stay hot without need of fueling?

herm..it depends really laa kn? what that interest may be..

interest in a particular hobby can last for years...interest in a person?..thats more complicated i guess..that can last years or it can just last a moment..not possible for just a moment u say?
let me cite you an example:

Two guys walking around town,they be chillin, when they spot a fox of a girl a few metres away..An intellectual discussion follows

Guy1: waa that girl so hot lah~

Guy2:ya laa, wuu wuu!! hot hoooot~~

Guy1:Go2!! I dare you to talk to her bro!

Guy2:ME?? why not you?? aih, chaaaa..u think i got no b*lls aa..ok2, i go!! (pulls up pants)

Guy 2 walks up to girl, silently as possible, coming up to her from behind..kunun2 to get her off guard, thus increasing his chance of scoring (lame I know..not all of us do that)...then the Girl rips one out..flatulence (look it up to you people...if u dont know what it means)...Guy 2 faints from the initial wave that hit....

Guy2: Kenot go la bro....kenot...(pukes)



So ok, not a good story...the point here is..if there is one...is that interest can become uninteresting with just one event..one cause..one reason...

It may be big,may be small...

one thing can send douse the flame that was burning inside, reducing it to nothing more than burnt imprints of what was...

how do we stay interested?

let us ponder..

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currently listening to

Britney spears-gimme more & piece of me...brit still rocks apparently..nice~

So its a little late..and its not even a resolution

A week late, but its better than not having any..
Setelah termenung tengok ceiling for days on end, ive finally figured out what i would like to accomplish this year..

i categorize them into two main parts
1) what i would like to have done by end of 2008
2) what i would like to own by end of 2008 (bermakna membeli/orang bagi/curik orang len nye)

see, a lot of thought went into this, so pull up a chair and do read on, by all mean~

1) what i would like to have done by end of 2008
a. Daki mana2 gunung/bukit yang femes di Malayis, if tak daki pon, naik cable car oso can..;p
b. learn at least 100 different solo's from old rock classics (means have to buy electric guitar lah, means i have to buy it first see item 2b)
c. Go to Bali/out of the country..i like to travel, but havent traveled out of the country on my own...sape nak join kasi nama!!
d. take the train, and travel all over the peninsula...interesting idea that was planned last year, but never executed.

There are a lot more things I would like to accomplish, but lets just list down a few here..If im done with them early, then I'll tackle the rest...

Just hope i remember to do them before the year is out..;p

So the next part would be:

2) what i would like to own by the end of 2008
a. A DSLR (tak lama dah nih, insyaAllah)
b. electric guitar..my semi is sounding positively unworthy for my rock inclined ears...
c. expensive shoes. Before this always wear cheap ones...sayang to buy expensive ones because afraid ill wear em out too fast because of the daily walks to lecture..
d. A Tag Heuer or Tissot or setaraf watch.. I appreciate well made timepieces...
e. A tennis raquet...So that i dont have to pinjam orang len nye everytime I want to go play ;p

erm...looking at it again, seems like im material driven...

perhaps i am...but hey, they are just guidelines, perhaps ill save up enough money to get all these things, and then end up not buying any of them at all...lol


boss just came, better get to work..
later people~

Hurts my feelings..yes it does

Just cant run away from it..its in everyone's family...i think its a disease...it really is...

why do they do that? why why why!!!

dammit

hurts my feelings when it happens..and when you try to counter, they say stuff that'll somehow or another shift it back on you..

"alaa, nk cover laa tu"


im sorry if its not good enough, maybe you should take the wheel and drive...perhaps that would be best, up to your expectations...perhaps...

and dont say its reverse psychology and what not, because its not.... it just plain hurts people..

d*mnit

im at a point where i know, further arguments will produce nothing whatsoever, pointless to the part where its like talking to yourself...

I have enough control to walk away calmly from the confrontation, and here i am, letting it out...

MCR-I dont love you & 30 seconds to mars - the kill-----> remedy music





better of swearing here in cyberspace...

dam*it!!!!!

i need time to cool off...

i need a good talk...

resolute

5th day into a new year...and still..no specific new year resolution...

where is it?

suggest me one...

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Went to One Utama on new years eve..pretty decent..pretty packed..
i had never been the type who would go out of my way to celebrate these kind of things, but this time around I was able to make an exception..there was nothing to do at home anyways..

It would be a lesson learned to note that one should make their way early if u ever wanted to go to a gig celebrated by the nation...for one, it would mean that you could catch the performance staged usually a couple of hours before midnight, and two..save you time finding a proper parking space..

about an hour to find a decent place to park...not what you would categorize as normal...

it was fault on our side, lambat sangat pergi...what can you expect right??

owh, here are snaps of the fireworks (naseb baek sempat tgk)
















so ok...not so nice...but be reminded it was taken with a camera phone..not some fancy DSLR (soon..soon....)

it was a good night id say...something to remmber 2007 with...its going away celebration..;p

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The country is in a crisis as of late it seems...all sorts of trouble seems to be sprouting out like gophers...political trouble mostly..

the elections are not far away from now (I have not registered, being only legal to vote just recently..)...could it be that all these seriously country effecting events be part of schemes to tumble the opposition?

I would think so..nobody plays fair anymore...not even the people who promises to keep our country at peace..

we are fighting amongst ourselves (among Malaysian, as a whole), and the others are looking at us, laughing, waiting for the opportunity to intervene...pitiful..very

the image of us as a happy plural community is slowly deteriorating..each blaming on the other for this and that...
there are people who are seriously trying to make sure the generations to come are united..
take note the National Service..to which i applaud (eventhough I initially was against going to,because malas..)..parents should send their children there...they really should..

maybe they should do one (NS-ish like stint) for the older people, who are still squabbling eventhough they are living and making a living on the same soil...not setting a good example for the youngster are we now,sirs...

I love my country..shouldn't we all?

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Its been a while since i did some photoshopping/photo snapping...

hope to get meself a DSLR...soon...

hope is all i have now...hope2....

any of you people want to sell to me....cheap?... free pon bagus juga..hahahahha

ah..mebe that would be my 2008 new year resolution...


GET A DSLR BEFORE 2009


bring it on 2008!!!! *roar*

Kurasa rasa rasa

Kurasa seperti...

Ingin mengatakan sesuatu..

mengatakan isnt the right word..meluahkan?

My BM sucks...(-_-")

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Sudah makin meningkat usia, mencecah angka dua dekad+lebey sedikit...
Apekah yang telah dikecapi selama ini?
What have i done, what havent I done, and what shouldve been done..

In some cultures, at the ripe age of 21, ure expected to be independant, get your own place, and move out of ur parents..independant here means financially too..
The question here now is..can we survive if we were to follow that standard..off on our own when we're 21?..interesting..

Its a matter of choices here...really...
would you like to live alone, but free to do what u want when u want and how u want, but meaning u have to fork out your own meal and rent ?
or would u prefer living with parents, still being able to do things u want, but not nessecarily when u want or how u want...but dont have to think of rent..or malnutrition.


choices choices choices...when are we ever rid of them..ngaa

I like being able to go out, when i want..when ade duit aa that is...
socializing, mixing around with different people..catchin up with old friends, making new friends along the way..it nice..and i like to consider myself blessed...to be surrounded with so many friends with so many different characters..

its always messy when ure surrounded with people who dont understand u, or people who live their life differently that what ure accustomed to...
they dont understand you...yet..
you dont understand them...yet..

I do try my best to fit in whenever encountering new cliques..i do..

they way I see it, the more friends i have, the more people i can borak2 with or hang out with..

the way my parents see it..the more friends i have..the more choices i get to pilih2(pilih ape, cube teke)....(-_-")...

a little early to be thinking of that..
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I had a friend..

A girl..telling me

"Boys dont make good bfs, suke buat orang broken heart"

herm...ouch...

Sure hope im not in the same category...
So here to all the ladies out there..reading this..

I cannot promise you that everything will be a bed of roses, but I can promise you that, for the life of me, I will try not to break any of your hearts. I'll try my best, and we can hope that it just works out...
call me- 012-391****...
hahaha...crazy..self promo..how desperate can a guy get..

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What do you do when there's something in ur head that u just cant stop thinking about?

John Mayer-Im Gonna Find Another You

Have a gud one

What am i , and to who?

The things that we run for, always seem to run a step further..just a pinch away

John Mayer-Dreaming with a broken heart..fitting

There are some things i'm willing to wait for...although I may be the only one waiting..

I'd better start on something else before i go into depression
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I've spent many nights now, doing what most Malaysians do best, lepak-ing..a fine art that we Malaysians have perfected over generations..heck, the mapley(mamak place) thrived on this art we fine tune religiously as a country, as people, united, without the thoughts of riots and what not. mapleys use to be so few many years ago, far contradicting to the situation now..a new mapley opening every now and then..here where i live for example, each housing area has at least one, and all are jam packed, friday nights!

here, we can sit over the casual teh tarik, among friends, among would be friends..among enemies...
we can talk politics, critisize, analyze and pesterize any topic that is on our mind without having to look over our shoulder, afraid that the ISA could come over any second and snatch u off from ur seat..
yes, its an open air debate over a cup of tea

chance to expand ur mind-yes
chance to hear to other peoples opinions-yes
chance to express one's thoughts-yes

chance to express one's feelings?..herm...

proposal during a roti canai break...doesnt sound too romantic now does it?

talking is good, but its nothing compared to the chat u have with people who understand u..
its the small things that matters..

20 years on this earth, and i can remember all the best conversations i had (because they only happened just recently;p).....

so talk, people, dont keep urself in..
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I cannot help but wonder...why is it..do i..enjoy going to work?
well, its not work, its just industrial training..still...i enjoy going there...why?

Dad asked me
"Do you like going there?"

I pondered..and said
"yes..why?"

"owh, so thats why u seem so happy these days.."

so ok, i like going to work, but does it rili show?...am i turning into one of those japanese drone workers?..bleak..boring..and wud luv nothing more than to go to work on a sunday...

ive never been a rajin fellow, tak pernah..ive always been a malas person, for as long as i can remmbr..so when people say they see me liking going to work..well, thats something that i didnt even notice..

am i destined to be the office husband, or the loser who has a job..but no chick?
the one who works late into the night...because there is no one elsewhere waiting for him?

i wonder..and i wonder...and i wonder sumore..

thing is...i can see it happening now....(-_-")

find the cool switch on me, somebody, and turn it on..pronto...


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Marron 5- Sunday Morning..perfect

Sunday, the marker day signalling the end of another week, and an eve of a new one..
Ku bangun pagi, usually with a slight jaunt..a rude awakening if not by my sister bising2 calling me to wake up, or by the direct morning sunlight coming through the window yang membanjiri muka .


The house is full as of late..full meaning that there are occupants in every room. Grandma is here, brother just flew back, and recently got maids..and apparently they occupy space (duh). My personal space at home is usually my room, its my fortress, tempat dimana ku habiskan masa bersama diri sendiri. now..haha..its like a highway..people coming in and out, my bro nye luggage on the floor everywhere..and my sis popping in every now and then to sit in front of the computer to watch any funny videos on youtube...and oh, yeah, grandma sleeps in my room too, which means, i sleep on the couch..

dont get me wrong, bukan complain, just saying that...its a change for once..
too much being on your own cant be good, so this sort of interaction is a nice change...



The whole family went on vacation today..to Terengganu to send my bro, but alang2 stay there a couple of days at a resort..
and here I am at home...left behind...hahahaha
apparently the car cant fit all of us+luggage, so someone has to volunteer to stay behind.
.and when I say volunteer, who else can it be other than me? lol
i dun mind pn, these sacrifices things pile up, and i can just ask for a pampasan later, use it for leverage..for staying at home while the others were happily on their way doing fun stuff i cant imagine at a resort where i am not..
pampasan usually means cash..the thing all people my age will gladly receive with tangan yang amat terbuka..huhu


it has occurred to me..how dangerous we lead our lives...the reality that there are people out there capable of doing things that are barbaric and monstrous has sunk in...
people are more open to doing crimes, some proud that they are some kaki pukul or buli jalan.. boasting to everyone else how they beat up this old geezer because he was driving faster than they were...its a man eat man world, and lisence to terrorize is being issued without warrant to people with less than half a brain to think about community safety.

police are doing their job, i think..

James Morrison- Call the police...tetibe teringat pula

I am concerned, concerned that one of those monstrosities would catch a hold of those who I hold close..family, friends, loved ones..
u cant be there to help everyone, but being concerned is better than not caring..

to seorang, if ure reading this, yep, i was dizzy from the thoughts that came rushing in as to what mightve happen

Syukur alhamdulillah that God has protected me and those around me from the inner demons that haunt man/women.

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however, it is Sunday, not a day to have ure mind cluttered with work or problems, but a day to ease ur mind for Monday...

do what you people have to do